Live, Laugh, Love

The beginning of a blog

As a whole I have begun to embark on a most “lucrative” roller coaster of ups and downs. Now I put lucrative in quotations because although it is profitable in one aspect, there are many aspects in which it is not. There really is quite no job like that of a laborer in the oil field, or dare I say a number that goes on to become a statistic. 

Did you know that you could be wrong
And swear you’re right
Some people been known to do it
All their lives
But you find yourself alone
Just like you found yourself before
Like I found myself in pieces
On the hotel floor
Hard times have helped me see

I’m a good man, with a good heart
Had a tough time, got a rough start
But I finally learned to let it go
Now I’m right here, and I’m right now
And I’m open, knowing somehow
That my shadow days are over
My shadow days are over now

Well I ain’t no troublemaker
And I never meant her harm
But it doesn’t mean I didn’t make it hard to carry on

Well it sucks to be honest
And it hurts to be real
But it’s nice to make some love
That I can finally feel
Hard times let me be

I’m a good man, with a good heart
Had a tough time, got a rough start
But I finally learned to let it go
Now I’m right here, and I’m right now
And I’m open, knowing somehow
That my shadow days are over
My shadow days are over now

I’m a good man, with a good heart
Had a tough time, got a rough start
But I finally learned to let it go
Now I’m right here, and I’m right now
And I’m open, knowing somehow
That my shadow days are over
My shadow days are over now

I struggle to find

Distant emerald eyes

I struggle to find any truth in her lies

An empty body flung about in the wind

A life full of sin

With one look at his face

I see how weary hes become in this place 

Feet nailed to ground

A hurricane swirling all around

Even with all the late nights

Not one thing begins to relate 

My eyes glued shut

My hands clenched tight 

My jaw is clenched in an amid attempt to hold on

Slowly floating away

Oh how desperate I have become

Can you hear me 

Can you see me

Sleep takes me away to a small moment of peace

May you find that rare moment

On and on and on

let it find you

CHANGE

Let me hold you for the last time

It’s the last chance to feel again

But you broke me, now I can’t feel anything

When I love you and so untrue

I can’t even convince myself

When I’m speaking it’s the voice of someone else

Oh, it tears me up

I tried to hold on but it hurts too much

I tried to forgive but it’s not enough

To make it all okay

You can’t play our broken strings

You can’t feel anything

That your heart don’t want to feel

I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

How can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, what are we doing?

We are turning into dust

Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire

When there’s nothing left to say

It’s like chasing the very last train

When it’s too late, too late

Oh, it tears me up

I tried to hold on but it hurts too much

I tried to forgive but it’s not enough

To make it all okay

You can’t play our broken strings

You can’t feel anything

That your heart don’t want to feel

I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

How can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

But we’re running through the fire

When there’s nothing left to say

It’s like chasing the very last train

When we both know it’s too late, too late

You can’t play our broken strings

You can’t feel anything

That your heart don’t want to feel

I can’t tell you something that ain’t real

Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

So how can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time

It’s the last chance to feel again